I sit here so overwhelmed with emotions. I don't know if it was the small (very) unnecessary argument I had with my ex yesterday or just that I go under a very serious change in just two very short days.
My girlfriend who had the surgery visited shortly today and she always has helpful insight. She said "don't take any books, you'll just sleep from the pain" in the hospital anyway. LOL Funny to hear it but I'm sure she's right. I was mentally packing all these things!!! I still have to do this actually and haven't! AHHH
I feel like I have all these things still left to do but no time left to do them. Oh and not to mention my liquid diet I've had to be on since yesterday at noon which I think I was doing good until last night. I think I also need to find some more filling soups. I just got a little frustrating last night with the diet.
Then the question all my loves ones keep asking "are you ready"??? I don't know how to answer that? "I mean I guess". As ready as I will be to be cut on. lol that's the only part I don't like of this process, I'm ready for my change to come HELL YEA!!!! BRING THAT ON!!!!! I guess if I could close my eyes tonight and wake up and have already been operated on I'd be OK (sounds weird) I know. But I have serious anxiety issues leading up until surgery...pre-op part AHHH put me to sleep as soon as I get there! LOL
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